A THING ABOUT BEING ME

Instinct Martin.. That mind rocking crystal ball something instinct you have.. Follow it...

Martin: So you deserve a piece of a price, don't you?!

Farewell Jilyn

Who would have thought, Jilyn, would take her life? It was a tragic Monday for all of us to remember... Why Ji?  What's wrong? You have all the love in the world, the best that God could offer? Despite all of this gifts, why? But whatever thoughts you have or problems you never dared to share, we will always be here defending you... God loves you so much Ji. we love you... The short time you shared to me will always be treasured. You'll be my inspiration to go on and never give up... My Board Exam, I will offer it to you... God, pleae send my love to Heaven!

Happy Feb 14

Yah.. the saddest date for me... Hope to have the best next year...

Can You Feel The Pressure?

I don't want to be pressured but because of the meeting this afternoon, as if I woke up from a transcendent dream.. I need to march.. I need to go up that stage, have my mother with me, do the tassel ceremony and receive my diploma...  I empathize Ma'am Vicky, she worked so hard for something which we could not accomplish.. But we will try our best.. We will graduate on time!!! Time to study!

I Got a Crush on You

Sorry but the first time I saw you, crush ta na ka.. wahaha.. Huya ko gani magstare simu.. wahaha.. The first time you smiled, the first time you said excuse me kay mapass ka sa door, the first time I signed my name, the first time you laughed at me, the first time you talke to me- 2seconds to siya ata gina... Thank you for making me happy and helping me forget... Crush ta ka.. wahaha

To March or Just to Graduate?

I hate being pressured... But what should I do? I really want to march.. to attend the Graduation Ceremony..but how can I do that if all they where thinking was the assurance of producing students capable of topping the board? Is this pressure really works or is this but another selfish ways of my school?!

I'm Feel'n Good

I met them.. Mandy and Ken are nice.. hehe... Now we're friends.. Thank you!!! One thing I need to do now is to study.. I really need to study harder, take interviews,pass exams and make sure I will graduate on time!!! hehe...

what's with the BLUSH?!

YES...we watch Paano Na Kaya.. I can't belive it but nakarelate gid ko... And I cried in different scenes of the film.. after watching, we ate at Pizza Hut.. and what's with the Blushing? the smiling? the laughing? I miss you but guess what, I remained peaceful after that.. Is this a sign that I am already moving on? hope it is... I will miss you!!!

YAN..was it the FINALE?

okay.. the truth is I'm trying to get rid of you but I just can't... sorry...but I can't imagine myself living a life without you.. sorry... i'm not yet ready... but I'll try....

i'll shut up my mouth

so unfair.. they made serren look bad in front of everyone.. ni 1st year guro la gani kabalo kung anu to gakatabo... i hate it.. it was delivered in a very unfair manner... kung muto ang feedbacking nga gina tawag I'd rather not attend for another one... we commented, we complained and in the end, we were the ones who appeared to have the fault.. I hate it... I'd rather keep my mouth shut and appear nice than to open it and say bad stuffs... how unfair my college is... pero nevermind..

as far as i am concerned, they were the ones to blame for the injustice that the student have had felt about the celebration and about the financial stuffs... they had there lessons... basta ako, I'll just do what I am supposed to do... I'll make sure I will not be like them....

katapusan ng mundo..

so happy.. wala na ko sa Bacte... haha

i bought a Globe Tattoo

yep.. i finally bought a wireless broadband for my PC.. haha..

someday, its gonna make sense...

i finally did it.. i made the most daring move I had ever done in my life.. atleast know it is revealed... i know i'll be better....

THIS IS NOT GOODBYE

Tuesday... enrolment for Internship... Should I expect excitement among my peers? should we be glad because finally we will reach the final adventure of our MedTech life? How can I be happy if my closest friends didn't made it? I can't see myself continue the journey without them... I will miss you all.. to Jem, who dont deserve to lose the fight, prove them wrong... Show them what you really got... To RJ and Matet, don't waste the next moment of your adventure- this is not failure...this is just your postponed success... I will miss you all... The friendship I had with you is the most loyal I had ever had... Thank you so much for the acceptance, for the joy and the unconditional love... THE FRIENDSHIP WE HAD WILL BE FOREVER CHERISHED... ONCE AN MT-4, ALWAYS BE A MT-4...

time to change..

i love myself... i love myself.. i love myself... i'm not narcistic... i just love myself...

SCREEN TEST

Sometimes, there is a need to stand up for yourself. The “standing up” that means you have to make a big decision which will eventually change the entire picture of your present life. It could be the most difficult thing to do but though it hurts, you know that it’s for the best. It may cause me pain but I know this choice will make me happier in the end. Funny cause it is indeed true- there is no such thing as FAIRYTALE. And everything definitely has expirations. Mine has taken place.
Was it over because somebody dropped me? Of course not, I’m Martin remember? If a boss tries to fire me, I will outdo him with my resignation letter. I’m just making decisions which I know would be of my greatest advantage. It is such a heartbreakin’ move- but I know my drama is on its screenplay, I’m playing with my own visual effects and I choose the best cinematography for it. Hate me-so you will play the poor little adversary. Now, I’m bitch’n out again. Hehe.
It just started with my former ‘self-made-lead-stars’ who tried to steal the glare of publicity out of me but not surprisingly they did not succeed. And it made me into a bitter but glaring bitch. After all, I look upon my counterpart- Blare Waldorf. And if there is Blare, there should be Serena and the rest of the Powerpuff girls… thanks to them, the invasion of the spiteful, the nasty and the beautiful come about and we call the story “Friendship”…
But it didn’t stop there; a Dan Humphrey is trying to make his way into the scene. The story was smoothly flowing but suddenly he mess it all up. As if I care?! Of course I care, that was assumed to be the best part, the climax, the glitters and the music of Mariah on its background. AAAHHH!!! I was so close but aaahhhh!!! Oh well, I dropped him too...
Now I think I need a break. Im nursing grudges, oh no! It’s a bad sign…. Oh what am I thinking?! What am I saying?! I think I just have nothing to do right now… xoxo!

Lola Rene

I've reached this point that I feel so guilty. Guilty because Lola Rene is now weak and I got no chance of redeeming my self. I hated her for unknown reasons, I fought back when she had to justify something and every time I see her, I got irritated. Now, I feel bad, seeing her in the hospital bed helpless. God, please give me a chance to thank her for her kindness, patience and unmeasurable understanding. Please give me a chance to redeem myself. Thank you dear Father...

A TIME TO FIGHT BACK

Sometimes, I'm thinking of myself as a loser, weak and has no guts to stand up for himself. Well, I guess the saying "If you want to look big, join the giants" is quite real. Now I am taller than most of my foes. They hate me, I hate them too. This is just a fair way of dealing with life's bitches... hate me, I will hate you more. Beware of the plastics and learn to fight back! go Boi!!!!

THE NEXT WRITER

As I was browsing through the pages of a literary folio, I told myself: “I should write”. I should learn how to write to be exact. I’m not a writer and grammar makes my knees numb. But I will dare myself to write because this is one fascinating form of self expression. So before you continue reading the next few lines, please EXCUSE MY ENGLISH (grammar, diction and hopefully not spelling), anyways let’s just consider this as my personal style.
Since my elementary days, we are trained to write. We furnished the skills during high school with the electives on Creative Writing, Journalism, Technical Writing, Research and Literature. Now, the question is: “What happened?” The answer? Still I do not know. Since then, I really want to write…in English. But skills discouraged me to do so. While most of my classmates scribble on higher English, I remained in simple inartistic laymen’s diction. Oh crap. Wish I could write as good as those in the school paper.
I really want to write. But I do not know or what to write. But still I will write. I will not give up. I will be the best writer. I’ll be writing for Reader’s Digest and contribute on Chicken Soup in the future. But for now, I will just write for myself, improve my skills and dream more. Hey, life without a mission is not life at all.

-JOHN MARTIN DAMASCO
Writer…Future Writer

NOW THAT I’M 20

Yep, you heard it right. I’m a kid no more. Hehe. Birthdays were indeed worth remembering. Mine was just a plain simple celebration with my family and my cousins. I had a date with my ever bestfriend, my dearest cousin Twinkle the next day. Sort of post birthday celebration for me and a pre-celebration of her birthday, which is on the 21st. Hay, hopefully, as I enter the world of the 20’s I may be able to fulfil the expectations of being a 20 year old.

Now that I am 20:

I promise myself to be more mature,

That I may be able to make wise, if not good decisions,

I will strive to be good in my daily venture.

I wish that I can make it,

That I can be assertive in everything I do.

I will be positive,

And successful,

At the same time happy.