Wow! It's been 2 years since my last post... So what's new?!

I was reading my recent post (actually not that recent) and I'm so glad that the plans that I wrote there was put in to action.. Yeah, I did it all (except for the phone part which I'll be purchasing sometime soon), I am eating a lot, I go to gym (and gained around 8kgs - I'm an ectomorph, okay?!), I am paying the electric bills and it's all because I was hired a month after I wrote my last post.  And next September there would be a major lift on my salary.. Wow, I am sooo lucky! Oh, and to go back to school part, yeah, I enrolled myself to Basic Cooking course which lasted for 3mos, but decided not do Masters...waste of time and money...



for the next posts, it will be more of future plans and goals.. Yeah something to imagine for the universe to recreate itself and make it all come true...


that`s it pancit!

THE DAY I SAID I'LL TRY TO WRITE AGAIN

Yes, its been a while since the last time I write on my blog… This is quite an emotionally tough time for me..Oh well, like any other time. 

Well now, I'm working as a volunteer MedTech at Don B.. The highest paying government hospital in the province. I am enjoying working here. The fact that I am new and adjusting and nobody knows me add excitement to my daily routine. I know I am going to stay here longer.  I work at AM shifts only and after that, I go to my part time job..just like before- a academic tutor to a high school Korean student.

I go to work at around 7:30AM and arrive home at around 9PM… All of this is for the love of myself- I keep myself busy, very busy to forget the feeling of being lonely..

I watched this movie "Remember Me" and it struck me a bit. Now I know I need to write. Since the very start of this blog until the end, all that I clamor about is finding happiness, looking for that someone and getting fucking sad all the time and all those crap. Well, what's my point for all of this?- oh well, nothing.. Nothing really…

What to write next?

So I'll start with something more pleasing to read… My Short term plans as I enter the practice of Medical Technology… hehehee… By the time that I'll be earning already (which I guess would be sometime the following weeks ahead), I will take care of our electricity bills, I'll visit a dermatologist and enroll myself to gym… I'll do plenty of exercise and yeah, I'll send myself back to school.. I'll take my Masters.. What else? I'll lessen my drinking and avoid smoking… I'll take  good care of my pets and buy new pets, lovebirds maybe…and go foodtrip, I will eat a lot of food, plenty and plenty of foods….hehehhe.. I'll buy a new fone, a dual or triple sime capable maybe… heheheh

THE BOARD

 It's more than three months... Three long months of stay here in Manila, the place I thought I will never consider to stay. But I guess things changed, a lot of things changed, people changed, thinking changed, manners changed and self changed. I will consider living here in Manila as a blessing. I have learned many things, I learned to become independent, to live on my own, to trust only my self and to love myself even more... Friends hurt me, people after three months showed who they really are, it just too bad, they've changed for the worst. I am so blessed that here, I learned to trust God above all things, I knew him more... Thank you for despite the negativities, I found comfort with my real friends and God... Thank you because, this place had given much comfort... I know that I will be a better person after this... No more room for negative thoughts... All positive vibes.... Good vibes.... I feel good and excitedfor the results of the board exams... hehehe... I know I'm going topass and make it on top!!!

My Amnesia Girl

A week after the Compre Exam, me and my super love BFFs decided to watch Bangin Ka Ba?!... I mean, My Amnesia Girl (It's just that na LSS ako to that very line of the movie's theme song). Nakakapangilabot as I relate myself to the character that Toni Gonzaga played- Irene, ako lang ang mermaid version, she was also asthmatic, with the blue inhaler with her all the time, kalog and pretty...hahaha... I mean yung sa story, she loved someone from the past, she was trying to forget that f*ckng bastard and she hates him--- "kapag galit ka pa, ibig sabihin nun mahal mu pa rin. Hindi mo pa kasi makalimutan".... WTF!  misty eyes, not again.... Good thing they are also absorbed by the scenes... Emote to the nth power ang drama... Anyways, andun din kasi ang ultimate type ko at the moment- JM de Guzman.... wahahhaa.... 

After the movie, we hung out at Langford... Hay, friends forever...they're not called BFFs for nothing...

At the moment, the euphoria brought about by the fact that I'm heading to Manila for more than two months caught my air... I want to prepare my luggage (but wala pa nga'ng luggage bag)...I want to decide what to bring, what clothes to wear there, things to be prioritize....chaka...as I repeat, wala pang luggage bag... Siguro, I need to think about the numerous Christmas Party I need to attend to na lang...The numerous gifts I need to buy... hay lusbot bulsa ta naman ni...

Basta ako, I'm soo excited to leave Iloilo for a long time...excited to be homesick..... hahaha....

Basta one thing is for sure: I WILL PASS THE BOARD!!!! or better: I WILL TOP THE  BOARD!!!! 

and here are some unforgettable, cheezy lines from the movie Bangin Ka Ba:

mga abnoy...super kalog!!!!hahaha

"Ulan ka ba? Kasi lupa ako. Sa ayaw at sa gusto mo, sa akin ang bagsak mo."

"Maging cactus ka man, handa akong masaktan... mayakap ka lang."

"May MMDA ba dito? Nagkabanggaan kasi ang puso natin." 

"May lason ba ang mga mata mo? Kasi nakakamatay ang mga titig mo."

"Ang true love ay para sa matatapang na tao lamang." 

"Ipikit mo ang mga mata mo. Kasi sabi nila, kapag nakapikit ka, dun mo malalaman ang totoo mong nararamdaman.”

"Kung pwede lang mawala lahat ng kasalan sa pamamagitan ng yakap, habang buhay kitang yayakapin."

"Kung ikakasal ka saan mo gusto? Ako kasi sa tabi mo."

"Kung may uulitin ako sa buhay ko, gusto kong ulitin yung araw na nakilala kita. Kahit paulit-ulit. Kahit araw-araw." 

"Alam mo, para kang tae... Hindi kasi kita kayang paglaruan."

"Ihi ka ba? ...Hindi kasi kita matiis eh."

"Para kang alak... ang lakas ng tama mo sa akin."

Apollo: Tumatangkad ka ba?
Irene: Hindi, bakit?
Apollo: Kasi dati hanggang balikat lang kita, ngayon nasa isip na kita.

Apollo: Lumiliit ka ba?
Irene: Hindi, bakit?
Apollo: Kahapon kasi nasa isip lang kita, ngayon nasa puso na kita.


Apollo: Bakit ba hinahanap ang isang tao?
Peachy: Kasi gusto mo siya?
Apollo: Hindi, kasi nawawala.
Irene: Bakit? Nawawala ba 'ko?
Apollo: Hindi, pero hindi ka kasi mawala sa isip ko eh.

Apollo: Bakit mo ba hinihintay ang isang tao?
Irene: Kasi takas sa bilibid?
Apollo: Hindi, kasi gusto mo siya.

Irene: Mahal kita. 
Apollo: Sana pirated CD ka nalang para paulit-ulit mong sabihin 'yan. 
Irene: Mahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal kita.

Apollo: Magdala ka ng salbabida.
Irene: Bakit? Maliligo ba tayo?
Apollo: Hindi, baka malunod ka sa pagmamahal ko. 

Irene: Sino ako?
Apollo: Ikaw si Irene ko. Ikaw ang mapapangasawa ko. Photographer ka.
Irene: Mali. Pulis ako. Ikaw kasi ang most wanted ko.






...bangiin ka ba? kase... kasi..... nahuhulog....ah leche LSS nga nih ho!!!

OFFICIALLY, I AM A BMLS GRADUATE!

After years of struggling, finally I made it... I just passed the Comprehensive examination yesterday and I can't believe it, no Re-Ex... Whoah! Im so happy... Two weeks of sleepless nights, six months of depressing waiting and almost six years of patience, I'm done! I am soo done with school, though I'm missing it but I need to face a much bigger world, the real one. I know that I will make it to the board examination but I want to make it big. I will do my very best in order to top the board, after all I am John Martin Damasco... Joke lang... haha... Thanks to all those who in a way had contributed to this success I am enjoying at this moment...

God, without you, I know I can't make it this far... Thank you so much for loving me despite me being the crazy sheep among your flock. Now I know, I am your favorite...hehehe... I love you soo much...

Manila, I know you are thrilled to welcome me... I will try my best to live freely, independently and responsibly... I'll learn to cook real food for survival's sake...hahha...

 Thank you sooo sooo soooooo much for all of these... You are my strength and I will always be there, leading your silent legion...

To my SSC Family, thank you!

To the crazy BMLS we finally made it...
Thank you for the years of friendship and craziness... keep on soaring high!!!!

To Shella, Ellen, Jennifer and Jose... The Penta "a"- hahaha... Thank you!!!

To Nanay, Tatay, Myla and Michael, I offer my next success to you... I will remember you everytime I am being attacked by negativity...

To Tita Malou, I won't be able to experience this if not because of you... Thank you!

To you my God, My Saviour, My Everything... I super duper love you to the nth power!!! Mwuah! Mwuah!!!

Yahoo!!! Graduate na gid ko... Goodbye paper and pens and assignments and projects and demanding teachers and terror teachers and teachers who are bitches...

I will miss you all!!!!

LAST DAY ON THE INTERNET

I PROMISE MYSELF THAT I WON'T OPEN THE INTERNET NOT UNTIL I'M DONE WITH COMPRE... SUCH A TEMPTATION....

MY SNEAKURZ

Adidas- Occasions YUM 

YUM!

CONVERSE WHITE

SLIP-ON SLIPPERY

ALL-STAR HAYKAT

ALL-STAR TATTERED 

LEVI'S HAYKAT

PUBLIC ROYALTY HAYKAT

THE COMPRE ANXIETY

 I really don't know what's the right word for this... tormented? This Comprehensive exam is really torturing me now. I wanted to study but my body won't cooperate. For two consecutive Saturdays, Ellen, Jennifer and I met up to study but most of the time was consumed with tattletales of course.  Sometimes, I have this idea of taking my own life, but I'm in a fight against entertaining this conjecture. I may be attacked by anxiety at the moment but I know that I have to do my best. With my love ones by my side I know I can make it...and in the Board Exam, I want to make it big. I always envision myself in front of a crowd, delivering a speech for I topped the board. I want to experience the feeling of being the best. I want to be the best. I am the best. It will always be like that. Now,  I mak upmy mind, I will study....later.

200 POUND BEAUTY

someday, i will be just like you....

Just finished watching 200 POUND BEAUTY and I just realized, aist...I can relate to the story... As if I want to base my own life story in that movie... From ugly and being rejected and being used to being beautiful and loved by many.... It's every insecure person's dream... In my case, I'll just make it a point to remember that one day, a Hannah will transform into a lovely Jenny... Soon people will realize that it won't always be about the external beauty, which is temporary, matters; but the beauty from within which is immortal. But too bad I am not a good singer... Haha. But at this point I am so glad that I finally fathom that I don't have to put a great effort on pleasing others. I am just so unique and beautiful... Soon, people will finally see how beautiful people like me are.... Go Fighting!

I DREAMED HER NAME WAS JULIE

hope you don't exist...

It was so real. Like every detail, the scenario, can't recognize it as a dream (unlike other dreams that I can predict that I was just dreaming). Her name was Julie, and she was your girlfriend. You are with her most of the time, id she is not around, you look for her in her place which is just in front of my house. It was like a place in the barrio, I have a tree house, you have a bike, the road was not concrete, weather was warm and humid... Weird but I still hope it is not true. When I woke up, I saw your txt message... Omen? Can't get the message straight...can't recognize the sign

the dilemma of a party guy who decided to study saturday night

Now I know, BFF Jem shouild be really angry by now... Haizt, I decided to study, not to party with her. But in a way, I didn't feel much guilt with my decision. I really need to start studying for my Compre. It's as if a "one wrong step then bye-bye" kind of exam. I need to prepare. I know that there is lesser time left, I am feeling lost with my studies already. Bar hooping is not my feel anymore. Lately, I find dancing, flirting and spending bucks for nothing to be boring. Is it because I am getting more mature or just because I am already earning that's why I am becoming wise when it comes to spending at this time? Whatever the reason is, for me, partying is boring... I am more into priming in a tambay kinnda way, it's more fun coz more laughs, nonsense talks and corny jokes- sooo fun... So to decide whether to party or to study--- I'll go for books and taking down notes... BORING!
But I need to, especially at this point that I am more inspired to study. One focus at a time, and for now, achieve the short term goals and decide to reach the highest peak that I am aiming to ever since...

LESS FUN, MORE MATURE, MORE PRACTICAL ME....

hey you vampy!

What can I say? Haha... Now, it is a start of something unexpected. As if I am wishing for this moment to come. But still, I won't be assuming anything, I'll just savor the moment and make most out of it. Now, you'll be the reason why I'll be sleeping late... wahaha... You make me smile, i dunno why... haha. Your humor was so infecting. We talk nonsense but still we can keep the conversation for hours. haist, butterflies, such a funny feeling.... can't wait for the next one!

TO YOU ALL

what makes me happy? i dunno.. somethings that even if its all repetitions, makes me feel thrilled to experience it again.. seeing those familiar faces that I missed for the past 24hours, the smiles, the talks, the laughters.... Things I am thankful.. God has really wonderful ways of introducing special people into your life... life will always be like this, full of smiles. it feels good that everyday, you are waiting for that moment wherein you will smile again.. thrilled that few more hours, the moment is in your hands, and all you have to do is cherish that moment and make most out of it... Thank you, thank you to all of you that made me so happy. Without you, I can't imagine what life would be...

tomorrow is a reunion of my bffs.. those people who taught me  how to stand up and fight for myself. They taught me how to be strong and unbreakable. I owe to them the type of person I am now. No one can bring me down.

My happiness is all for you. I will share it to all of you who have been and always been good to me. You are one of the many reasons why living life is so beautiful. Thanks for the kindness, for the love... My deepest gratitude to God for giving me these few wonderful people that serves as my inspiration and my strength...

Martin is Martin..because of you all... Thank you!!!

i'm 22

happy 22nd b-day mar10!

Can't believe it. It's been 22 years since I was born in this world. What's in store for me now that I am 22? Should I expect a lot of fun or a start of serious life challenges? Whatever there is for me, I should accept it with all my heart... I am starting a new life now.. More beautiful and more confident.... I am so happy to be ME! mwuah!

WHAT'S IN STORE FOR MY BIRTHDAY?

Every Sept. 19th, I'm expecting something.... Hope this year it will be such a blast....