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This is to 2011.
In 2010 I made mistakes. Met lots of bitches & assholes. & I did things i shouldn't have. I was too busy looking at the past. What happens.. happens, that's all i can say. 2011 will be my year. i'm no longer even thinking about my regrets. Shit is going to happen when I don't want it to, but there's a reason behind it all. Someday it will all make perfect sense. Or maybe it won't. Not my problem. January 3rd, I'm going to walk with the biggest smile on my face. For once it will be a real one. I'll walk down the halls with confidence not giving a damn what he/she thinks. & I'm not gonna sit around waiting for him to text me. I'll turn all the insults into compliments. Whatever it takes to make me happy, I'll do it. Cause 2010 was one of the years i just sat around and felt sorry for myself. Well not this year bitches! RT if this is basically your toast!
Here's to 2011!

1-1-11

New Year na.. This should be the start of a new life... 4 more days, I am saying goodbye to this wonderful place and explore a much bigger world to grow. For two months I will be gone, I'll face life challenges on my own. I promise that I will be more responsible on my ways. The happiness I experience here in Iloilo is worthless, but I have to do this for a better future, for myself.

This 2011:
1. I will be more mature on my ways.
2. I will not dwell on the pass but I will face my future with head held high... Moving on....
3. I will be happy...very happy.
4. There will be satisfaction for myself.
5. No more insecurities.
6. Maturity.
7. Successful, I will be very successful.
8. Optimism.
9. I will widen my world.
10. I will embrace myself fully and be soo proud of my achievements.

So help me God!!!! hehe.. love lots... -Martin

My Amnesia Girl

A week after the Compre Exam, me and my super love BFFs decided to watch Bangin Ka Ba?!... I mean, My Amnesia Girl (It's just that na LSS ako to that very line of the movie's theme song). Nakakapangilabot as I relate myself to the character that Toni Gonzaga played- Irene, ako lang ang mermaid version, she was also asthmatic, with the blue inhaler with her all the time, kalog and pretty...hahaha... I mean yung sa story, she loved someone from the past, she was trying to forget that f*ckng bastard and she hates him--- "kapag galit ka pa, ibig sabihin nun mahal mu pa rin. Hindi mo pa kasi makalimutan".... WTF!  misty eyes, not again.... Good thing they are also absorbed by the scenes... Emote to the nth power ang drama... Anyways, andun din kasi ang ultimate type ko at the moment- JM de Guzman.... wahahhaa.... 

After the movie, we hung out at Langford... Hay, friends forever...they're not called BFFs for nothing...

At the moment, the euphoria brought about by the fact that I'm heading to Manila for more than two months caught my air... I want to prepare my luggage (but wala pa nga'ng luggage bag)...I want to decide what to bring, what clothes to wear there, things to be prioritize....chaka...as I repeat, wala pang luggage bag... Siguro, I need to think about the numerous Christmas Party I need to attend to na lang...The numerous gifts I need to buy... hay lusbot bulsa ta naman ni...

Basta ako, I'm soo excited to leave Iloilo for a long time...excited to be homesick..... hahaha....

Basta one thing is for sure: I WILL PASS THE BOARD!!!! or better: I WILL TOP THE  BOARD!!!! 

and here are some unforgettable, cheezy lines from the movie Bangin Ka Ba:

mga abnoy...super kalog!!!!hahaha

"Ulan ka ba? Kasi lupa ako. Sa ayaw at sa gusto mo, sa akin ang bagsak mo."

"Maging cactus ka man, handa akong masaktan... mayakap ka lang."

"May MMDA ba dito? Nagkabanggaan kasi ang puso natin." 

"May lason ba ang mga mata mo? Kasi nakakamatay ang mga titig mo."

"Ang true love ay para sa matatapang na tao lamang." 

"Ipikit mo ang mga mata mo. Kasi sabi nila, kapag nakapikit ka, dun mo malalaman ang totoo mong nararamdaman.”

"Kung pwede lang mawala lahat ng kasalan sa pamamagitan ng yakap, habang buhay kitang yayakapin."

"Kung ikakasal ka saan mo gusto? Ako kasi sa tabi mo."

"Kung may uulitin ako sa buhay ko, gusto kong ulitin yung araw na nakilala kita. Kahit paulit-ulit. Kahit araw-araw." 

"Alam mo, para kang tae... Hindi kasi kita kayang paglaruan."

"Ihi ka ba? ...Hindi kasi kita matiis eh."

"Para kang alak... ang lakas ng tama mo sa akin."

Apollo: Tumatangkad ka ba?
Irene: Hindi, bakit?
Apollo: Kasi dati hanggang balikat lang kita, ngayon nasa isip na kita.

Apollo: Lumiliit ka ba?
Irene: Hindi, bakit?
Apollo: Kahapon kasi nasa isip lang kita, ngayon nasa puso na kita.


Apollo: Bakit ba hinahanap ang isang tao?
Peachy: Kasi gusto mo siya?
Apollo: Hindi, kasi nawawala.
Irene: Bakit? Nawawala ba 'ko?
Apollo: Hindi, pero hindi ka kasi mawala sa isip ko eh.

Apollo: Bakit mo ba hinihintay ang isang tao?
Irene: Kasi takas sa bilibid?
Apollo: Hindi, kasi gusto mo siya.

Irene: Mahal kita. 
Apollo: Sana pirated CD ka nalang para paulit-ulit mong sabihin 'yan. 
Irene: Mahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal kita.

Apollo: Magdala ka ng salbabida.
Irene: Bakit? Maliligo ba tayo?
Apollo: Hindi, baka malunod ka sa pagmamahal ko. 

Irene: Sino ako?
Apollo: Ikaw si Irene ko. Ikaw ang mapapangasawa ko. Photographer ka.
Irene: Mali. Pulis ako. Ikaw kasi ang most wanted ko.






...bangiin ka ba? kase... kasi..... nahuhulog....ah leche LSS nga nih ho!!!

OFFICIALLY, I AM A BMLS GRADUATE!

After years of struggling, finally I made it... I just passed the Comprehensive examination yesterday and I can't believe it, no Re-Ex... Whoah! Im so happy... Two weeks of sleepless nights, six months of depressing waiting and almost six years of patience, I'm done! I am soo done with school, though I'm missing it but I need to face a much bigger world, the real one. I know that I will make it to the board examination but I want to make it big. I will do my very best in order to top the board, after all I am John Martin Damasco... Joke lang... haha... Thanks to all those who in a way had contributed to this success I am enjoying at this moment...

God, without you, I know I can't make it this far... Thank you so much for loving me despite me being the crazy sheep among your flock. Now I know, I am your favorite...hehehe... I love you soo much...

Manila, I know you are thrilled to welcome me... I will try my best to live freely, independently and responsibly... I'll learn to cook real food for survival's sake...hahha...

 Thank you sooo sooo soooooo much for all of these... You are my strength and I will always be there, leading your silent legion...

To my SSC Family, thank you!

To the crazy BMLS we finally made it...
Thank you for the years of friendship and craziness... keep on soaring high!!!!

To Shella, Ellen, Jennifer and Jose... The Penta "a"- hahaha... Thank you!!!

To Nanay, Tatay, Myla and Michael, I offer my next success to you... I will remember you everytime I am being attacked by negativity...

To Tita Malou, I won't be able to experience this if not because of you... Thank you!

To you my God, My Saviour, My Everything... I super duper love you to the nth power!!! Mwuah! Mwuah!!!

Yahoo!!! Graduate na gid ko... Goodbye paper and pens and assignments and projects and demanding teachers and terror teachers and teachers who are bitches...

I will miss you all!!!!

LAST DAY ON THE INTERNET

I PROMISE MYSELF THAT I WON'T OPEN THE INTERNET NOT UNTIL I'M DONE WITH COMPRE... SUCH A TEMPTATION....

MY SNEAKURZ

Adidas- Occasions YUM 

YUM!

CONVERSE WHITE

SLIP-ON SLIPPERY

ALL-STAR HAYKAT

ALL-STAR TATTERED 

LEVI'S HAYKAT

PUBLIC ROYALTY HAYKAT

THE COMPRE ANXIETY

 I really don't know what's the right word for this... tormented? This Comprehensive exam is really torturing me now. I wanted to study but my body won't cooperate. For two consecutive Saturdays, Ellen, Jennifer and I met up to study but most of the time was consumed with tattletales of course.  Sometimes, I have this idea of taking my own life, but I'm in a fight against entertaining this conjecture. I may be attacked by anxiety at the moment but I know that I have to do my best. With my love ones by my side I know I can make it...and in the Board Exam, I want to make it big. I always envision myself in front of a crowd, delivering a speech for I topped the board. I want to experience the feeling of being the best. I want to be the best. I am the best. It will always be like that. Now,  I mak upmy mind, I will study....later.

A Millionaire's First Love

Jae-kyung is a high school senior but he skips school often. Once he turns nineteen years old, he is going to be a millionaire. However, the day before he inherit the fortune, his family lawyer tells him about the will from his deceased grandfather. It is specified that he can inherit the fortune only if he graduates from Boram High School, which is located in the countryside. He has no choice but to go there. Life changes a lot for him at Boram High School. He can't use his credit card or even drive his sports car! Meanwhile, as Jae-Gyeong attends this school, he meets Eun-hwan. She is different from the other people living in the country and seems to have some kind of secret. Jae-Gyeong starts to change his attitude, and Eun-hwan’s secret is about to be revealed.

Starring Hyun Bin and Lee Yeon Hee

After watching this film I just realize how complicated life is. It is as if I want to be young again. Before, happiness is so plain, so simple. When asked who my first love is, I will immediately answer, "My parents", now first love is something that brought out tears in my eyes, a question I always avoid answering. Excitement is when I'll be seeing you the next day or an immediate text that you badly needed to see me now, unlike before, it's during afternoons wherein I'll be meeting up with my friends to play in a vacant lot, laughing and cheering until it's already dawn and our moms will call us to go home. If only the one peso coin I always asked from my lola when I was six years old has the same value as of now, how lucky I will be to have a thousand bucks in my wallet? Now, four thousand is not enough to pay my debts and six hundred pesos is just enough for a good dinner for two. When I was young, my greatest problem will be counting the stars in the sky for I only memorize one-to-ten and skip the rest and utter 1million. Now, the word problem is hard to define, same as happiness and love. It is nice to be young, no regrets on making mistakes, just happiness...pure happiness...

200 POUND BEAUTY

someday, i will be just like you....

Just finished watching 200 POUND BEAUTY and I just realized, aist...I can relate to the story... As if I want to base my own life story in that movie... From ugly and being rejected and being used to being beautiful and loved by many.... It's every insecure person's dream... In my case, I'll just make it a point to remember that one day, a Hannah will transform into a lovely Jenny... Soon people will realize that it won't always be about the external beauty, which is temporary, matters; but the beauty from within which is immortal. But too bad I am not a good singer... Haha. But at this point I am so glad that I finally fathom that I don't have to put a great effort on pleasing others. I am just so unique and beautiful... Soon, people will finally see how beautiful people like me are.... Go Fighting!

the dilemma of a party guy who decided to study saturday night

Now I know, BFF Jem shouild be really angry by now... Haizt, I decided to study, not to party with her. But in a way, I didn't feel much guilt with my decision. I really need to start studying for my Compre. It's as if a "one wrong step then bye-bye" kind of exam. I need to prepare. I know that there is lesser time left, I am feeling lost with my studies already. Bar hooping is not my feel anymore. Lately, I find dancing, flirting and spending bucks for nothing to be boring. Is it because I am getting more mature or just because I am already earning that's why I am becoming wise when it comes to spending at this time? Whatever the reason is, for me, partying is boring... I am more into priming in a tambay kinnda way, it's more fun coz more laughs, nonsense talks and corny jokes- sooo fun... So to decide whether to party or to study--- I'll go for books and taking down notes... BORING!
But I need to, especially at this point that I am more inspired to study. One focus at a time, and for now, achieve the short term goals and decide to reach the highest peak that I am aiming to ever since...

LESS FUN, MORE MATURE, MORE PRACTICAL ME....

last night was a blast

Headache, dizzy, the feeling of wanting to vomit- hangover. But such a wonderful hangover if you experience it with your closest buddies. Last night was such as blast. I enjoyed the talks, the beers and the expensive aftermath dinner at a ever sosyal Korean resto- Prosperity (as what Erica Kim said was its name, located at Ledesco). I miss them all, Matet, Rachel, Chris with Troy and RJ and of course Jem and Gaby. Friends will always be your friends no matter how long you haven't seen each other or talk to one another. We may experienced the bitterness of life but we have our friends to mix things up and create a more appetizing bittersweet kinda life.

But last night, he was uttered in one of our petty, nonsense discussions. I really hate this weird feeling, the wanting to burst into tears for reasons so stupid that I don't wanna discuss. Yes, no matter how hard I am trying to forget the feelings, no matter how much reality checks I did...the feelings for him was still there... I know someday, it will be over. Nothing's too late to forget.

But despite that part, my happiness of finally meeting up with my friends, the fact that we are complete that night made me feel so blessed and lucky for the treasures bestowed on me from above. I sacrificed work that night but it's all worth it.. Thank you sooo much!

BFFs: THE REUNION

After months of not being complete..We will meet again, just like before, just like the old times. The drinks, the laughs, the nonsense talks,the gossips and being bitches with a tagline: "THE HELL WE CARE!"... I miss being with you all, BFF Gaby, BFF Jem, BFF Matet, Madaam Rachel and not so BFF RJ (haha). I owe a part of who I am now to all of you. Thanks for the great friendship, for making me feel I am really part of our exclusive circle. Thanks BFF, later will be super fun! fun! fun! Can't wait for the month long recaps of the happenings each of us missed. Thank you so much my BFFs!!! xoxo

TO YOU ALL

what makes me happy? i dunno.. somethings that even if its all repetitions, makes me feel thrilled to experience it again.. seeing those familiar faces that I missed for the past 24hours, the smiles, the talks, the laughters.... Things I am thankful.. God has really wonderful ways of introducing special people into your life... life will always be like this, full of smiles. it feels good that everyday, you are waiting for that moment wherein you will smile again.. thrilled that few more hours, the moment is in your hands, and all you have to do is cherish that moment and make most out of it... Thank you, thank you to all of you that made me so happy. Without you, I can't imagine what life would be...

tomorrow is a reunion of my bffs.. those people who taught me  how to stand up and fight for myself. They taught me how to be strong and unbreakable. I owe to them the type of person I am now. No one can bring me down.

My happiness is all for you. I will share it to all of you who have been and always been good to me. You are one of the many reasons why living life is so beautiful. Thanks for the kindness, for the love... My deepest gratitude to God for giving me these few wonderful people that serves as my inspiration and my strength...

Martin is Martin..because of you all... Thank you!!!

i'm 22

happy 22nd b-day mar10!

Can't believe it. It's been 22 years since I was born in this world. What's in store for me now that I am 22? Should I expect a lot of fun or a start of serious life challenges? Whatever there is for me, I should accept it with all my heart... I am starting a new life now.. More beautiful and more confident.... I am so happy to be ME! mwuah!

today senti

TODAY, I WENT HOME SENTIMENTAL

Today is another special day for me. Its just today that I realized my life has really changed a lot. My family, a.k.a. my SSC high school classmates let me realized this all. I learned to appreciate them more. Yes, they are my lifeline, but just today that I appreciated them clearer. We had a great night yesterday; we watch a last show movie, drink, went to the bar, had a sleepover (as usual) and talked and talked and laughed and talked and took a 1 hour sleep. We went to the coffee shop to have nice sip in a cup with the sweetest reminiscence and sentimental talks that made my cappuccino tasted better. Our lives really change. We don’t usually do this before. Our bonding sessions back in our teeny days were just barrio fiestas, laughs in the town’s park and chit-chat in one of our houses. Simple days, simple lives, shallow happiness. But now, things changed, our ways or habits are now different. Then after a sip of her ice coffee, Shayne started it all, she said, our bonding compared to other groups is different. We are more solid compared to other batches of SSC’s. I nodded.Then I just realized how special they really are, not because we are Special Science Class but because they are indeed special in there own unique way. I wont forget there smiles, there happiness, the comfort of being with them, the shared moments, the trust, the empathy, the unconditional love, the sense of great friendship and a one big united family. They are so precious that I am learning to sacrifice for them, to defend them and to fight for them. And when time comes that I have to forget about them, it will be the hardest part of my journey. If fate doesn’t allow a forever in our relationship, it will be my most tormenting. But I know one day, maybe, just maybe, I’ll be glad if they will remember me as the Martin who is bubbly, carefree, jolly, wacky and cracked. I’ll be okay if they will live their lives, slowly, forgetting someone named Martz. Maybe few more days, few more months or years it will come about. But all I am just pleading is put few more days of extension because it is too painful. But remember, things are happening because I don’t want to hurt you guys, I don’t want to see you in agony because of me. I’m posting this because maybe one day (but please never), it will occur, you will know how special and dearest you are to me. A part of my life is designed to touch yours. I love you guys and I hope to see you more, to see tomorrow, the next day, the day after the next, in succeeding weeks, months and years. I want to see you all forever. But if not, I want to see you all happy and contented with your lives. Go on… life goes on…
I will always be here for you guys without asking for anything in return. I guess that’s my fate, to meet you all dearest bros and sis and take a role in your life, to make you happy and appreciate how wonderful life is. And I am greatly proud about that. Sorry for my shortcomings…
I love you all!