moved on

Let go of those who bring you down and surround yourself with those who bring out the best in you.

For the past few weeks my reminiscence can be sum up with this line. And so glad that now, no more feeling of loneliness overflown my sanity. It definitely means I already let go, I moved on.

Now, I'm enjoying the present and thrilled for what the future holds. I know this is gonna be good...

Now is a good start with new people surrounding me, building good friendship with my labmates- I know this is gonna be fantastic. I'm so lucky that I entered a world wherein people are acting firm but nice, a place wherein you'll greet them goodbye and they will respond to you with all enthusiasm and sincerity. A place wherein if you needed help, they'll be very willing to extend their hands to you. I know, there is so much more to be learned but good thing, I'm confident that it'll be easy for me to improve and perfect my skills...

Thank you so much!!!!

Different World, Different Life... Change for the Better

They say nothing in this world is permanent except change. I may say it's really true, people come and go, no one stays but only few you may call as your true friends. Now, after all those challenges that I gone through and passed with flying colors, it is time for me to keep moving forward, leave out the things of the passed and make sure to make the most of the present. Now, I know that I will be happy, that I am grateful of the present and thrilled with what the future holds for me. I know this is definitely the start of something wonderful, of something amazing for me. I never felt this grateful, this glad with all that I have...with my God, I know I am satisfied and I am on the right path. I never felt this at peace. Thanks to the new world that I entered wherein everybody is a stranger and I am starting- I know the result would be satisfying... Thank you sooo so much dearest God! 

Don Benito is a new world for me. I know I'm going to be amazing and excellent. I know I will be one of the bests... Thank you sooo much.... I'm doing my best not to impress but to be satisfied. Thank you so much! 

To my haiskul brods and sis- this is gonna be an amazing journey for all of us... For almost a decade of friendship- I may say I am so lucky! Thank you so much!!!!

Thank you! thank you! thank you!!!!

It's All About Me Maki'n It On Top

 Ey guys,
 Got a hand me down Notebook from Tita which I am really happy about... I didn't expect such a magnificent gift from "The Secret"... So glad that I have lots of new stuff... I will be very thankful about this all... Salamat gid....

RMT'S GRATITUDE BOX

MY SINCEREST GRATITUDE TO ALL OF YOU WHO PRAYED ANDSUPPORTED US FOR THE LAST THREE MONTHS OF STRUGGLE AND VACATION (joke lang)...


TO MY CPMT BATCHMATES- SALAMAT! WE MADE IT! AND WE MADE IT BIG!

TO THE CPMT, USA- THANK YOU FOR THE SUPPORT... CONGRATULATIONS! WE RANKED 3RD!

TO OUR MENTORS, PMT STAFF AND PHARMA PROFS- thank you so much for helping us achieve this wonderful blessing.

TO SIR JOE, MA’AM DINDIN, MA’AM ROSE, MA’AM VICKY- I’m so lucky to be in your class... Thank you for being an inspiration...

TO THE PMT STUDENTS, MT INTERNS, MT ALUMNI AND RMT INTERNSHIPBOSSES- thank you for the messages, notes of encouragement, motivations, to Sir Rolle...To Ma’am Joyce and Ma’am Kat of WVMC thank you gid... Sir Mark, Ma’am Julie....

TO ACTS- MA’AM MILBA, MA’AM LEAH, MA’AM JUDE, SIR RABOR- thank you... a part of us you’ve changed...for the better...

TO MY “A MAN’S HOUSE” FRIENDS- thank you for your prayers... I miss you all ‘chers... Hope to see you soon... Hi lang ko kina Pastor and the rest sang mga students...

TO MY ONHS MENTORS AND OCES TEACHERS- I HOPE IF YOU HEARD THE GOOD NEWS, YOU’LL BE PROUD OF ME... Ma’am Ces, Ma’am Rhods, Ma’am Stella, Ma’am Jusayan, Ma’am Palma, Ma’am Cecil Paguntalan and Ma’am Sansaet- salamat kay gapati kamu alam man ko...haha...

TO MY SSC’05 HAISKUL BRODS AND SIS- I share this achievement to all of you! Thank you for the prayer rally, for being there always... Let’s continue the Good Friday tradition- overcooked Pancit Canton and Coke- my treat this year...I repeat: this year and this year lang... I’m so blessed to have you guys!

TO THE CASA DA BEBO CLAN- thank you so much for being there for me all the time. Thank you for being so proud of me! LOLA Cita, wherever you are right now, thank you gid coz I know that you blessed me on the day of my exam, the day you passed away...

TO MY TITA MALOU- I will never reach this far if not because of your selfless help! Thank you so much!

TO MY NANAY DOLLY, TATAY OTEP, MY SIBLINGS MYLA AND MICHAEL- it’s my turn now... Cenxa lang kay gamay sweldo Medtech...

And TO MY DEAREST GOD- I will never achieve this if not because of your glory... I truly know that I am your favourite...hehe... Thank you, thank you dear God... Thank you thank you gid!!!



...and to my lucky red underwear- I am willing to share your luck to the next batch!

THE LUCKY RED UNDERWEAR

THE BOARD

 It's more than three months... Three long months of stay here in Manila, the place I thought I will never consider to stay. But I guess things changed, a lot of things changed, people changed, thinking changed, manners changed and self changed. I will consider living here in Manila as a blessing. I have learned many things, I learned to become independent, to live on my own, to trust only my self and to love myself even more... Friends hurt me, people after three months showed who they really are, it just too bad, they've changed for the worst. I am so blessed that here, I learned to trust God above all things, I knew him more... Thank you for despite the negativities, I found comfort with my real friends and God... Thank you because, this place had given much comfort... I know that I will be a better person after this... No more room for negative thoughts... All positive vibes.... Good vibes.... I feel good and excitedfor the results of the board exams... hehehe... I know I'm going topass and make it on top!!!

Farewell, Old Friend

For months, I've been writing about you, about how I'm gonna move on, sometimes saying that it is over but actually it is not. Now is a NEW year, I need to let go. I need to say goodbye for the last time- for the times that I am missing you and those moments I want to say "I love you". We may be seeing each other again, you may keep on texting me "Hi. Musta?" and leave a message at times but now, they will just be a mere casual catching up from an old friend. I may not forget you (coz it is impossible), but those moments, will just be bare memories; memories of how we used to be... Now is goodbye. Now, the chapter about you ends and the transition to a new life begins. I am thrilled, I am excited and believe it or not, I am happy. Though there is still a little inevitable bitterness but still I am okay. I'll be perfectly fine in God's time. Goodbye to you...

 Just want you to know, I loved you...

why do i love quotewhore?!

This is to 2011.
In 2010 I made mistakes. Met lots of bitches & assholes. & I did things i shouldn't have. I was too busy looking at the past. What happens.. happens, that's all i can say. 2011 will be my year. i'm no longer even thinking about my regrets. Shit is going to happen when I don't want it to, but there's a reason behind it all. Someday it will all make perfect sense. Or maybe it won't. Not my problem. January 3rd, I'm going to walk with the biggest smile on my face. For once it will be a real one. I'll walk down the halls with confidence not giving a damn what he/she thinks. & I'm not gonna sit around waiting for him to text me. I'll turn all the insults into compliments. Whatever it takes to make me happy, I'll do it. Cause 2010 was one of the years i just sat around and felt sorry for myself. Well not this year bitches! RT if this is basically your toast!
Here's to 2011!

1-1-11

New Year na.. This should be the start of a new life... 4 more days, I am saying goodbye to this wonderful place and explore a much bigger world to grow. For two months I will be gone, I'll face life challenges on my own. I promise that I will be more responsible on my ways. The happiness I experience here in Iloilo is worthless, but I have to do this for a better future, for myself.

This 2011:
1. I will be more mature on my ways.
2. I will not dwell on the pass but I will face my future with head held high... Moving on....
3. I will be happy...very happy.
4. There will be satisfaction for myself.
5. No more insecurities.
6. Maturity.
7. Successful, I will be very successful.
8. Optimism.
9. I will widen my world.
10. I will embrace myself fully and be soo proud of my achievements.

So help me God!!!! hehe.. love lots... -Martin

SSC '05 CHRISTMAS PARTEE

Thank you.... Muna lang gid nahambal ko pagkatapos ko mahumpawan sa pasakit sang tiyan ko tungod sa talaba... Hambal ko sa kaugalingon ko, hindi na gid ko magkaon sang peste nga badlo nga ni biskan san-o. Kaladlawan lang kay gin tiempo ya gid sa pagselebrar ko sang paskwa. Hindi manami. Ang pag-igot kag pag-urangul ko kahapon ang pinakamasakit nga naeksperiensiyahan ko sa kabuhi ko. Kabwisit, na kapang yudiputa ko, nakapang linte kag bilatsing ilik ya... Bastos gid man ko gali baba. Haha. Subomg nga adlaw Christmas Party namun. Sadyahun gid namun ni kay muni ang ulihi namun nga pagkitaay bag-o ko malakat sa Manila sa Enero. Ikahidlaw ko gid ni- ang mga kabarkada ko nga wala natingag sa pag-agi sang malawig nga tini-on. Palangga ko sila kag ginakahidlaw ko ang taga Desyembre nga makumpleto tani kami. May ara man hindi mo makita, mga wala plano magpakita kag may ara man nga kapareho ko, gina itik-itik sa taga Christmas Party namun.
    Natandaan ko sang una, may mga Christmas Party kami nga la gid sang himus, nga pag-abot namun puro lang gid Pan ang bitbit sang tanan...kaladlawan kay kung wala pa natapus ang dramatic entrance ni Karla, la pa kami tani makatilaw tuod-tuod na pagkaon. Lechon Manok to bala ata dala ya mung. Excited na ko karun ah... Hahaha... Tani damu lang gid kami karun bah...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS....

Yahoo... Christmas nah... What makes me happy? The fact that I feel contented with the kind of Christmas celebration na my ara kami subong... There is no feeling of pitifulness that we don't have a banquet full of handa... The fact that we are merry this Christmas makes me feel contented already... A new life, a new me... That's number 1 on my list... I wish a more gleeful and peaceful 2011...

Merry Christmas everyone!!!

My Amnesia Girl

A week after the Compre Exam, me and my super love BFFs decided to watch Bangin Ka Ba?!... I mean, My Amnesia Girl (It's just that na LSS ako to that very line of the movie's theme song). Nakakapangilabot as I relate myself to the character that Toni Gonzaga played- Irene, ako lang ang mermaid version, she was also asthmatic, with the blue inhaler with her all the time, kalog and pretty...hahaha... I mean yung sa story, she loved someone from the past, she was trying to forget that f*ckng bastard and she hates him--- "kapag galit ka pa, ibig sabihin nun mahal mu pa rin. Hindi mo pa kasi makalimutan".... WTF!  misty eyes, not again.... Good thing they are also absorbed by the scenes... Emote to the nth power ang drama... Anyways, andun din kasi ang ultimate type ko at the moment- JM de Guzman.... wahahhaa.... 

After the movie, we hung out at Langford... Hay, friends forever...they're not called BFFs for nothing...

At the moment, the euphoria brought about by the fact that I'm heading to Manila for more than two months caught my air... I want to prepare my luggage (but wala pa nga'ng luggage bag)...I want to decide what to bring, what clothes to wear there, things to be prioritize....chaka...as I repeat, wala pang luggage bag... Siguro, I need to think about the numerous Christmas Party I need to attend to na lang...The numerous gifts I need to buy... hay lusbot bulsa ta naman ni...

Basta ako, I'm soo excited to leave Iloilo for a long time...excited to be homesick..... hahaha....

Basta one thing is for sure: I WILL PASS THE BOARD!!!! or better: I WILL TOP THE  BOARD!!!! 

and here are some unforgettable, cheezy lines from the movie Bangin Ka Ba:

mga abnoy...super kalog!!!!hahaha

"Ulan ka ba? Kasi lupa ako. Sa ayaw at sa gusto mo, sa akin ang bagsak mo."

"Maging cactus ka man, handa akong masaktan... mayakap ka lang."

"May MMDA ba dito? Nagkabanggaan kasi ang puso natin." 

"May lason ba ang mga mata mo? Kasi nakakamatay ang mga titig mo."

"Ang true love ay para sa matatapang na tao lamang." 

"Ipikit mo ang mga mata mo. Kasi sabi nila, kapag nakapikit ka, dun mo malalaman ang totoo mong nararamdaman.”

"Kung pwede lang mawala lahat ng kasalan sa pamamagitan ng yakap, habang buhay kitang yayakapin."

"Kung ikakasal ka saan mo gusto? Ako kasi sa tabi mo."

"Kung may uulitin ako sa buhay ko, gusto kong ulitin yung araw na nakilala kita. Kahit paulit-ulit. Kahit araw-araw." 

"Alam mo, para kang tae... Hindi kasi kita kayang paglaruan."

"Ihi ka ba? ...Hindi kasi kita matiis eh."

"Para kang alak... ang lakas ng tama mo sa akin."

Apollo: Tumatangkad ka ba?
Irene: Hindi, bakit?
Apollo: Kasi dati hanggang balikat lang kita, ngayon nasa isip na kita.

Apollo: Lumiliit ka ba?
Irene: Hindi, bakit?
Apollo: Kahapon kasi nasa isip lang kita, ngayon nasa puso na kita.


Apollo: Bakit ba hinahanap ang isang tao?
Peachy: Kasi gusto mo siya?
Apollo: Hindi, kasi nawawala.
Irene: Bakit? Nawawala ba 'ko?
Apollo: Hindi, pero hindi ka kasi mawala sa isip ko eh.

Apollo: Bakit mo ba hinihintay ang isang tao?
Irene: Kasi takas sa bilibid?
Apollo: Hindi, kasi gusto mo siya.

Irene: Mahal kita. 
Apollo: Sana pirated CD ka nalang para paulit-ulit mong sabihin 'yan. 
Irene: Mahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal kita.

Apollo: Magdala ka ng salbabida.
Irene: Bakit? Maliligo ba tayo?
Apollo: Hindi, baka malunod ka sa pagmamahal ko. 

Irene: Sino ako?
Apollo: Ikaw si Irene ko. Ikaw ang mapapangasawa ko. Photographer ka.
Irene: Mali. Pulis ako. Ikaw kasi ang most wanted ko.






...bangiin ka ba? kase... kasi..... nahuhulog....ah leche LSS nga nih ho!!!

OFFICIALLY, I AM A BMLS GRADUATE!

After years of struggling, finally I made it... I just passed the Comprehensive examination yesterday and I can't believe it, no Re-Ex... Whoah! Im so happy... Two weeks of sleepless nights, six months of depressing waiting and almost six years of patience, I'm done! I am soo done with school, though I'm missing it but I need to face a much bigger world, the real one. I know that I will make it to the board examination but I want to make it big. I will do my very best in order to top the board, after all I am John Martin Damasco... Joke lang... haha... Thanks to all those who in a way had contributed to this success I am enjoying at this moment...

God, without you, I know I can't make it this far... Thank you so much for loving me despite me being the crazy sheep among your flock. Now I know, I am your favorite...hehehe... I love you soo much...

Manila, I know you are thrilled to welcome me... I will try my best to live freely, independently and responsibly... I'll learn to cook real food for survival's sake...hahha...

 Thank you sooo sooo soooooo much for all of these... You are my strength and I will always be there, leading your silent legion...

To my SSC Family, thank you!

To the crazy BMLS we finally made it...
Thank you for the years of friendship and craziness... keep on soaring high!!!!

To Shella, Ellen, Jennifer and Jose... The Penta "a"- hahaha... Thank you!!!

To Nanay, Tatay, Myla and Michael, I offer my next success to you... I will remember you everytime I am being attacked by negativity...

To Tita Malou, I won't be able to experience this if not because of you... Thank you!

To you my God, My Saviour, My Everything... I super duper love you to the nth power!!! Mwuah! Mwuah!!!

Yahoo!!! Graduate na gid ko... Goodbye paper and pens and assignments and projects and demanding teachers and terror teachers and teachers who are bitches...

I will miss you all!!!!

LAST DAY ON THE INTERNET

I PROMISE MYSELF THAT I WON'T OPEN THE INTERNET NOT UNTIL I'M DONE WITH COMPRE... SUCH A TEMPTATION....

MY SNEAKURZ

Adidas- Occasions YUM 

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CONVERSE WHITE

SLIP-ON SLIPPERY

ALL-STAR HAYKAT

ALL-STAR TATTERED 

LEVI'S HAYKAT

PUBLIC ROYALTY HAYKAT

THE COMPRE ANXIETY

 I really don't know what's the right word for this... tormented? This Comprehensive exam is really torturing me now. I wanted to study but my body won't cooperate. For two consecutive Saturdays, Ellen, Jennifer and I met up to study but most of the time was consumed with tattletales of course.  Sometimes, I have this idea of taking my own life, but I'm in a fight against entertaining this conjecture. I may be attacked by anxiety at the moment but I know that I have to do my best. With my love ones by my side I know I can make it...and in the Board Exam, I want to make it big. I always envision myself in front of a crowd, delivering a speech for I topped the board. I want to experience the feeling of being the best. I want to be the best. I am the best. It will always be like that. Now,  I mak upmy mind, I will study....later.

IT HURTS- 2NE1

IT HURTS (slow)–ENGLISH TRANSLATION

[CL] You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her
As if it were nothing, you kiss her
You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her
You’ll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her

[Minzy] It seems that we’re already too late
Has our love already ended
Please at least say anything to me
We truly loved each other, can’t turn back?

[Dara] I’m the only one hurting tonight

[Bom] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You look at my tears as if it were nothing
You continue to talk calmly again
[CL] You told me cruely that you couldn’t deny
That you had absolutely no attachments or regrets

[Bom] Are we already too late? Is our love over?
Even if it’s a lie, please tell me it isn’t so
I can do better now, though we can’t meet again

[Dara] I’m the only one in pain tonight

[CL] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You’re no longer your old self
[CL] Because the you I loved
And the you now are so different
[Dara] Are you that shocked?
I just stood and cried
Watching you become further away
[Bom] No way, I can’t recognize
You’re not mine anymore

[Dara] Did you have to change?
Can’t you come back?
Did you really have to change?
Can’t you come back?

Did you have to change?
Can’t you come back?
Why did you have to change?
Can’t you keep loving me?

[Bom] Oh, is this the end?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
[Minzy] It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] It hurts, it hurts
[CL] It hurts, it hurts

HALLOWEEN TREAT

Happy Halloween... A Halloween treat for myself? Watching Episodes 7 and 8 of Mischievous Kiss.. Haist, now I know why I really love this drama... Same reason for everyone to have a favorite drama or movie or song...only one good reason: because we can relate to it. No matter how different the characters are, there will always be that one same scenario that you may had cried because it was soo you...soo true... Those scenes that activates a part of your brain to remember same event in your past... For this episodes, I think the main theme was giving up, letting go and forgetting. Trying to let go?! What the.. haist.. WTF!!!!!! wahahha... Anyways, I learned a lot from watching this drama... 

Time to visit Lola Rene and Lolo Nomer... 

ITULOY MO LANG- Siakol

Proud of those musicians who can make songs like this....

IT GETS BETTER

Broadway stars rock out in a celebration of life, in the wake of LGBT suicides across the nation. Please SHARE this original song and video to help send a message of hope and support.

All download proceeds benefit The Trevor Project. www.thetrevorproject.org (c) 2010 Jay Kuo & Blair Shepard. Inquiries: jay@singoutlouiseproductions.com.

Hey friend

When you feel like you’re alone

And the world throws out a lot of hate

It’s not the end

You’re not out there on your own

There’s still so much in life to celebrate

Just look up

Cause those skies are going to clear

There so much more than just the hear and now

Just look up

Cause a better day is here

Tomorrow feel the sunlight shining down

It gets better, better, better

The pain will let up, let up, let up

If you fall just get up, get up, get up

Ohh, cause there’s another way

It gets better, better, better

The world gets lighter, lighter, lighter

So be a fighter, fighter, fighter

Ohh, just live to see that day

Yeah, live to see that day (that day)

Live to see that day

Hey friend

We used to feel like you

No end in sight

Fearing everyday

Just defend the part of you that’s true

Find yourself and you will find the way

Don’t give up (Don’t give up)

Just take another look

And you can shine

It’s time you took the stage

Don’t give up

Cause your life is like a book

All you got to do is turn the page

There are friends yet to meet,

There are songs to be sung

There are beautiful sunsets

And battles are won

There’s love to be found if you just stick around

Don’t give up your life has just begun

It gets better, better, better

The pain will let up, let up, let up

If you fall just get up, get up, get up

Ohh, cause there’s another way

It gets better, better, better

The world gets lighter, lighter, lighter

So be a fighter, fighter, fighter

Ohh, just live to see that day

It gets better, better, better

The pain will let up, let up, let up

If you fall just get up, get up, get up

Ohh, cause there’s another way

It gets better, better, better

The world gets lighter, lighter, lighter

So be a fighter, fighter, fighter

Ohh, just live to see that day

It gets better, better, better

The world gets lighter, lighter, lighter

So be a fighter, fighter, fighter

Ohh, just live to see that day

It gets better, better, better

It gets better, better, better

It gets better, better, better

It gets better, better, better

DADDY LONG LEGS

Daddy Long Legs is the story of an orphan Yeong-mi with an anonymous sponsor. She grows up to be a bright and courageous scenario writer with helps from Daddy Long Legs. She then falls in love with Junho, who works at the company’s archive. This movie is based off of an American novel by the same name, written by Jean Webster.


Starring: Ha Ji Won and Yun Jung Hoon


The movie which opened up my interest with Korean movies and then Korean foods and Koreans themselves... The movie that I watched several times with the same excitement. As if it's the first time. It made  me cry... super... Prepare tons of tissue as you watch this movie, surely it will make you fall in love over and over and over again....